Her secret unveil

While surfing the net this morning, I came across this Madonna's Secret Weapon which caught my eyes for a good seconds. I think she has a superbly fantastic great figure considering that she's 50 years old. Wow! She's really something, isn't she? I'd still recalled her song; Who's that girl?? ha ha.....she's a woman now!

When I was half her age, I had a slim figure though I'm not even half as good or fit like her. Lately I've been on a munching machine almost all the time during the day. Just like many women out there I go through different phases in my life from a size small to medium to large. My figure now is more or less like Britney. Whenever I go out shopping, I had to look for either medium or a large size.

I remember one day (don't know what got into me exactly) I decided I wanna know what I look & feel like if I just let myself go by putting a few extra kilos than my ideal size. I've been on my current size consistently for a few years now & it's getting harder to get back into shape to where I used to. I'm still working on it & lucky for me although I do have cravings or hunger pangs at times I still manage to control them. I just learned that whenever you feel hungry you should first drink plain water first. It will make your tummy full only temporarily then perhaps you can take something like a complex carbohydrate such as, wholemeal bread, wholegrain cereals, oatmeal etc so that you won't have unnecessary hunger pangs.

Knowing that my metabolism rate has slowed down quite rapidly eons ago, I refuse believe that one can be gaining weight & stays that way once you reach a certain age. I was like "Oh no, that won't happen to me!" But now that I'm in this position I certainly know how it feels like when your weight keeps going north.

Since young, I've always been the slim & petite person in the family. I guess, back then I wasn't really enjoying my food ( I ate only because my tummy was grumbling for food & that's about it) as much as I love munching away now. Still along the way as I was discovering myself, I figured that I've intolerance for lactose & sugary load stuff. Oohhh, how I wish I could bite into those apple pies every other day....

Anyway, here are some good pointers from Tracy Anderson the Guru herself:

• Any time you are doing the same movement over and over you are building and bulking your muscles," she says. "It is very important to change your rotations and hit your muscles from different angles
  Ballet Grand Plies: Stand with heels together, toes slightly apart. With a straight back, bend at the knee as low as you can, then go back up again. Work up to 100 reps.
• Abdominal Crunches: Lie on the floor with arms at your side, your legs in front of you. Raise yourself slightly until you feel a "crunch" in your abs and then lie back down. The key here is to do it with your legs straight out in front of you, as that will really work your stomach without bulking it up. Work up to 100 reps.
• Piking: Lie flat on the floor, arms at your sides. Lift straight legs up to ceiling to 90 degrees and then gently lower. Without pausing, lift them back up again. Your upper body should remain flat on the ground.
  Both arms and legs should be straight with your toes pointed. Work up to 100 reps.
• Advanced Piking: Lie on the floor, legs straight out in front of you with your arms on the floor stretched out over your head. Hold onto a 3lb weight and bring your hands up to meet your legs when you raise them to a 90-degree angle and lower your arms and legs back down to the floor at the same time. Both arms and legs should be straight with your toes pointed. Work up to 100 reps.
• AND FINALLY...
  Stop making excuses - just do it.

Guess, I'm making myself an excuse for today.....opps!

Survivor Micronesia #6

I remember watching Jonathan Penner in an excruciatingly painful situation when his punctured knee was sewn by a medic. I hate having to watch him go at a time when he did exceptionally well in the Reward challenges despite the fact that his limping leg wasn't getting any better. It was very emotional situation as well when he had to make a split-second decision to get his infected leg treated in a hospital. I was heartbroken watching him bid his farewell & seeing the others getting very emotional. I just think that the tugging game was brutal & it seems to me that not much thought has been put into it. It's obviously a disaster.

Meanwhile, Chet Welch has decided to leave the game due to his injury in his heels during his trip to the exile island. After much battling within himself with the ideas others; Tracy, Erik & Ami had put into his head & weighing the pros & cons he decided that he wasn't into blind sided Ozzy in the end.

Throughout the entire episode, I honestly thought Chet was making excuses for himself to quit the game. I do feel a tinge of sadness when he was alas voted out by his tribe. It does feel like an obligation though when everyone clearly decided to vote him off. Perhaps, it wasn't meant to be for these two guys to outlast in the game much less to win this Survivor game after all.

Survivor of the Fittest Fever

I've been watching Survivor Micronesia since the first episode except for one I purposely made sure I missed the episode. I ain't an ardent fan of Survivor but somehow, what attracted me this time around was the two opponents pitting against each other between fans & favourites. It's entirely a new ballgame. What could be better & interesting, the fact that I get to see James & Amanda again. I've to disappoint you guys yet again, that neither of them are my favourites either. However after the last tribal council of Survivor China which James was in, I kind of see the kind of man James really is. Very endearing & he seems like a really nice guy. Well apart from that, do I need to mention his shapely physique?

I'd prefer Amanda for her sweet, demure & dove like eyes & ohh, the first thing she did the moment she arrived on the jungle was to get hook up with Ozzy the man. I think Ozzy is kind of cute & charming. There's something about the look on his eyes that makes, I think, Amanda wants to get close & discover him more, cause I do.

Anyway, I'll randomly pick the ones that interest me the most on this episodes of Survivor Micronesia. You see, when I first saw Mikey B, the first impression that I got about him was the looks on his face; definitely a confused guy & the funny thing is, sorry Mikey, unfortunately for him, he hadn't had any clue whatsoever that Joel was on top of the game. Joel has got the entire cards all to himself when he managed to persuade & has everyone's vote for Mikey's new found jungle love, Mary. Poor Mary she was the one who had to go while Mikey was utterly stunned by the verdict.

Thank God, finally Joel was out of the race on the next episode when Serene decided that it's time to act. I don't think what Joel did to Chet justify his needs to win the game badly. I felt it was pretty brutal watching Joel physically tugging Chet behind him like he was some heavy sack or something. In fact, I think he had badly screwed up every chance that he had in this game. Goodbye Joel, don't think many of the Survivor fans will miss you. On the other hand, I don't understand what really is going on with Chet physically. I guess, lady luck has always been by his side. Fortunately, he didn't suffer any serious injuries during & after that game. Somehow, I do sympathise with Chet though I kept wondering whoever picked both of them to do that challenge together.

Delicate affairs of the heart

For some unknown reasons I just thought that I need to let this out. If only these confusions that have been bugging me could stop momentarily. Wouldn't it be great!

It never once crossed my mind that one day I’d be facing with a heartbreak. As we got to know each other better I’m rather confuse as to whether I should follow my heart. On the other hand, it's yearning for something that I once thought I’ve found with someone but unfortunately, everything changed since that day. I feel at a lost now.

It’s been really an emotional roller coaster ride. Some things has left me emotionally scarred. But looking at the bright side, I should be thankful to Him. Yes, spirituality plays a big role in my life. Yet, I can’t deny this feelings I have. Try as I might to want to still believe. The fact still remains & perhaps it’s not so much of the past that makes me feel this way though it still hurts sometimes but it is the very one question that I’ve long been waiting for that makes me wanna reassess if the relationship is really worth it all.

There were times when I felt so hopeless when everything seems to be going the opposite direction. I wonder if I could ever find that happiness & true love in my life. A love that can weather any storms. It's different this time around when you have to consider your child 's happiness as well. It's a lot easier if you can just think about the kind of guy you want to be with but seeking a father figure for my kiddo is another thing! It's an uphill task.

Sometimes circumstances made it even more confusing that I doubt if this is the love that I want to be with. I just can't see how it's gonna happen anytime soon. I wonder if it's a waste to let go? Am I selfish?

It wasn’t easy to have to deal such overwhelmed mixed emotions all by yourself even more when you’re in a conflicting situation. I’ve learned that no matter whatever life throws their way at you, in the face of adversity I need to be strong for the both of us.

Just as my fingers were typing away, I remember a saying that goes something like this 'when you love someone it doesn't always mean that you'll be together forever'. Perhaps, there's some truth in that statement. Perhaps God has given me all the signs & answers but I've yet to react on it. Though I never stop dreaming of having the perfect family image that I've always carry in my head. The truth is life in itself isn't perfect at all. One thing for certain is, it isn't that easy to find that one person who could be both a true soul mate & a good father to your child. It's a very daunting task to say the least. Furthermore, try looking around there are many incidents of infidelity, betrayal & abuse to which I often ask myself, if someone truly loves somebody, why do these things happen every so often in today’s society? What does it take to have all the love & trust to vanish in a snap of a finger?

Life is full of twists & turns so much so that I sometimes wonder if I really am blessed with everything that I have now. Sometimes when you're blessed with a soul mate, unfortunately, he isn't the person you thought he'd be & when you're blessed with someone else in your life you're face with a situation you never thought you'd be at a crossroads one day. Will the promise ever come true?

Alright, enuff said. I don't want to get all carried away. I've been listening to this song over several times. I kind of fell in love all over again!



I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
.......
I don't know where
Confused about how as well

The morning I decided

With half opened eyes, I looked around but the room was still dark. My eyes were sticky from the late night movies I had watched last night. It's been 30 minutes since I stopped the beeping sound of the alarm clock which my kiddo had given me for mom's day. He'd his own alarm set too last night but I hadn't heard his yet, I finally rise up, did the things I always do each time I wake up in the morning. Actually, I had planned to do something today. I told the kiddo before bedtime last night about my agenda for today & he was all up for it.

Gosh! I haven't done this in years, the last time I jogged was way back during my high school. It was fun back then. I'd still remember whenever it was time for the physical exercise session, I'm always eager to go for it. I've always love jogging but have never like running, though. But now, I wasn't really sure if I could even make it to the other side of the track.

So, off we went early in the morning when the sky is blue & the morning weather is just so fine. We started off slowly upon reaching a nearby park. Since, this is the first time I started jogging after years of hiatus, I'd expected that I wouldn't be able or even manage to jog very far. Taking the first step in deciding to jog again wasn't a difficult decision to make at all as I've always like doing it though.

I don't want to expect too much from the initial run cause I was literally catching my breath only after the first few metres of my jogging. We jogged & walked intermittently along a distance of roughly about 2.5km long. We decided to sit on a solid bench only once along the beautiful sandy beach to catch the view of several docking ships which I'd not seen for a long time. Though the sun had started showing its rays on us, the feeling was beautiful & warmth. It was a lovely sight even though the weather was slightly hazy. It's such a joy being able to enjoy the scenery of the open seas once in awhile with my kiddo. I love taking a long walk at the beach especially in the morning when the air is fresh & the ambience is exceptionally calm, beautiful & serene.

As we started walking again, I decided that it's time we both headed straight for breakfast. Kiddo had a fish burger while I got myself some hot buttery pancakes. Surprisingly, we both were unable to finish the food though the only thing I ate was just a small portion of a pancake. I guess, what made our tummies full in quick seconds was because the first thing we both did was to get our hands on the ice cold milo which was for the first time in my life, it felt really good when the water flows down my throat & as far as I can remember it hasn't taste as good & delicious as this one.

After breakfast, we headed to a nearby store to do some groceries to grab my daily journal, some leafy green vegetables, a couple of fruits like oranges & some juicy dragon fruits which has been my kiddo's favourite fruit. These fruits shall be eaten cold, straight from the fridge especially during a hot summer day. However, it hasn't been sunny for days here. I arrived home feeling de-stress & invigoratingly energetic. I expect some aches on some parts of my body in days to come. Ouchh!

Sweat it out

It's been a long time since I sweat out. Halfway along the corridor, I took a longer route to get my daily journal & decided that I should take the stairs instead of the elevator. When I came back from the store, I took the stairways again. I thought of giving up halfway through cause I could feel my legs had started to tremble a little. I feel a sense of satisfaction - just a little, as I've always wanted to do some workout cause more often than not I tend to procrastinate a lot.Urghh..

Although, I basically like to workout, I don't think that I'm very strict or extreme in my workout routine or regime but I've always like & enjoy working out be it indoors or outdoors just as long as I know of my limitations & capabilities. I've been doing a lot of stretching ever since I was in my teens but as of late I've been too lazy to do just that.